hey 2013 -
so i've been delaying writing on our blog for a while, mostly cuz whenever i remember it's at 2 in the morning and i'm already in bed. and honestly i wanted to post something when i had a huge revelation or when something major happened. neither of those things have occurred but i've had a small collection of personal epiphanies that i thought i'd share, a few moments these last couple weeks that really struck a chord in me.
the sermon i heard this past sunday was talking about how in the book of psalms there's always this word selah, and how that was meant to be a kind of interlude in between the music of the psalms. it was a short pause, a moment to think over what was said in the past few minutes and pray and respond. for some reason, this really struck a chord in me and i began to think of how many times i've ever just sat and reflected, or even really just paused to think - i came up blank. i've had a lot of amazing spiritual experiences this past year and i've always wanted to think and reflect but i never seemed to have time. to be honest, i really hate being inefficient, especially with my time, so i've been packing in my breaks and semesters with as much as i could possibly fit in.. and you can guess how much time for just sitting and reflecting i've had in the last months. even now, when im at home on break, i tend to try to pack my schedule in - setting aside time to spend with my family, catch up on movies i missed, hang out with friends - but it's been so easy for God to slip out of my mind. i realized last night that i've been so passive in my spiritual life lately, and i can already feel that taking its toll on me. a pastor once described spiritual life to me this way: it's like going up a down escalator; if you don't keep constantly striving to go up, you'll go down, even if you just stand still. i think most of the time i tend to just stand still, letting the escalator carry me down, and when i look to the top i can't imagine how i'll have the strength to make it there. and i forget that God is my strength, that i can do all things through Him, that He is the one finishing the great work He started in me.
i'll be pretty busy this summer.. i've had a couple weeks to rest and bum around at home but i'm coming back to philly in about a week to work about a 40-hour week, and i'm taking a class second session. but despite the inevitable craziness of my summer, i really want to dedicate these next three months to be a selah moment, a time to reflect and thank God for what He's done in my life.
i also have a small prayer request.. i've decided to set aside this summer to really exploring and ultimately deciding if i'll continue being pre-med in the fall. i really want to find out if this is God's will for my life, and if it's not, to begin pursuing a different path. i'll be praying about it all summer and make my decision before fall semester starts, so i would appreciate it if you could pray for that. thanks guys, miss you all <3
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Soobin-a~!
ReplyDeleteI have problems with pretty much the same thing. I'll have a good experience or some good thoughts or something, and I'll be like, oooh, yeah, I should take some time to dwell on that...later...I guess it comes down to prioritizing. I sometimes feel like it doesn't have much to do with my being busy. I just put other things before God and then fit Him in wherever there's an open space, whereas I could spend less time on myself or on things that benefit me in some way and set aside time for God, as opposed to penciling Him in. Even when we feel like, oh, well I need to study for this so I don't fail or whatever, I think that sometimes I have trouble remembering that God is bigger than our plans or our exams, you know? So if we give Him precedence, He'll take care of us. Not that I'm saying, NEGLECT EVERYTHING, but you know what I mean. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers over the summer as you determine whether or not God wants you to be pre-med. Whatever you end up becoming will be cool, I'm sure, haha.
<3 Tavi
Jessie!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the post. Just so you guys know, it's not that I don't want to post, but for some reason, I couldn't accept the invitation to the blog...very frustrating. Meanwhile, until I figure that out, I guess I'll just comment to demonstrate my presence and to let you guys know that I am praying for you guys.
Alright, back to your post. I'm so glad you would finally have time for a selah moment and reflect on your year and God. I think it's quite hard for us busy college students to really sit down and spend some good quality time in quietness and peace with God. There's always something we can do, but this selah moment is absolutely important to us. I think it's at those times when we really see and understand God's blessings and grace, and that is when we get even more motivated to hunger for Him and live for Him more. Summer is definitely a great time for this. I really hope we'll all GROW TREMENDOUSLY IN HIM this summer. Let this time we have be an opportunity for more of Him in our life. Praying for you, your summer, and your decision about pre-med. No matter what, just remember to be patient with the Lord, cause He for sure has an amazing plan for you that He'll slowly reveal to you.
Love,
Courtney